Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Solace

Solace (noun) Comfort in sorrow, misfourtune or trouble.

Yet these truths are no solace against the kind of alianationthat comes of being ever the suspect, against being set apart, a fearsome entity with whom pedestrians avoid making eye contact.

Context clue would be logic as he gives us many examples of injustices he has to deal with and if the truths are not "solace" against them then the truth is no beneficial in anyway.

I find solace in knowing that there are people in worst places in life than me.

Cursory

Cursory (adj) going rapidly over something, without noticing details; hasty; superficial

I took a cursory look around ,noded and bade her goodnight.

Context clue would be logic as cursory would be something to do with "look around" and the circumstance of the situation would suggest it was quick.

I took a cursory look at the classified ads and found no one was hiring in La Habra.

Congenial

Congenial (adj) Aggreable, suitable or pleasing in nature or character.

I have been calm and extremely congenial on those rare occasions when I've been pulled over the police.

Context clue is logic as we can predict from the essay and also the sentence that he would act differently than usual and would try to appeal to the police by being very agreeable.

I wonder if the congenial nature of many nice people benefit them in some way.

Flailing

Flailings (verb) to beat or swing with or as if with a flail.

An infant discovers that random flailings send the baby bottle flying out of the crib and crashing to the floorOriginal Sentence: The sails on the boat were flailing in the wind.

The context clue is logic and because one can infer that flailing will have something to do with the result being the bottle flying in the air and that would be a baby throwing it.

I flailed blindly to defend myself against a kangaroo.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Implacable

Implacable (adj) not capable of being appeased, pacified, mitigated, or change

You hate it, yes, but your eyes do not. Like a killer forest fire, like a cancer under a microscope, any battle or bombing raid or artillery barrage has the aesthetic purity of absolute moral indifference - a powerful, implacable beauty - and a true war story will tell the truth about this, though the truth is ugly.

Context clue is examples and logic. If something is like a forest fire and the bombings and the artillery barrages have purity of absolute moral indifference then we can assume that it is something out of our control.

The implacable fact that government can never be perfect makes every government a victim of overthrow sooner or later.

Dismay

Dismay (n) sudden disillusionment

As a softy who is scarcely able to take a knife to a raw chicken - let alone hold it to a person's thorat, I was surprised, embarassed, and dismayed all at once.

Context clue is logic as if someone is surprised and embarassed at the same time, it would be logical to assume the word dismay means something is shocking or unbelievable.

To my dismay, my peers were idiots.

Rectitude

Rectitude (n) moral virtue

If at the end of a wary story you feel uplifted, or if you feel that some bit of rectitude has been salvaged from the larger waste, then you have been made the victim of a very old and terrible lie. there is no rectitude whatsoever. Tehre is no vitrue.

Context clue is a synoymn virtue. Author says no rectitude and no virtue, they must be similar.

Some see no rectitude for "eye for an eye" but virtue is defined by perception.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Insomnia

insomia (n) prolonged and unusual absence of sleep

Suffering a bout of insomnia, however, I was stalking sleep, not defenseless wayfares.

By logic, we can see that figurative speech of "stalking sleep" means he wants sleep, therefore we can tell he lacks it.

Sleep disorders such as insomnia give many people trouble going to bed and having a good night's sleep.

Things I Carry

The things I carry are things unseen. I do not "hump" physical objects but I admit I do "hump" things that are of matterless, massless, and invisible nature yet I believe they weight heavily on my conscious on my course of actions. I guess it all comes down from being born in another country and being raised there. Being from another country limited by social interactions with other kids while I was in elementary school as I did not watch the same shows or listened to the same type of music as they did. Also, sports was another issue as I had zero interest in "football" and basketball; so there goes belonging in that clique. Having non similar upbringing of course related to my foreign sets of virtues and morals from the American kids. Some things were rude to do here that were not rude in Korea and some things were welcomed here that was rude in Korea, so I had to adjust my actions based on where I was: school or home. Although I changed my actions based on where I was and who I was dealing with, the fundamental virtues stayed unchanged and these differences always seemed to make myself different from other people.

Adding on to the "me not being American" part, I also come from an unstable family. Be it unstable relationships between family members or financial instability. Being an Asian family, we don't really have a close relationships with each other as American families would have but on top of being Asian, we're dysfunctional. There was a scam that my Dad was involved in which caused him to be scammed of 100 thousand dollars. This caused us to not be able to continue to live in our first house in America and we had to move to an apartment complex. Also, on top of that, he wasn't able to get a job that was salary pay due to the language barrier despite him being an mechanical engineer. Hourly pay jobs are unstable in hours per month so sometimes we were very tight on bill payments and sometimes we couldn't make them. By the time I was 15, I was paying our bills online and as a consequence of that, I realized how much of a financial burden it was to pay the bills. It caused me to feel the stress and I've always carried the weight with them. As a result, I never bought anything or asked for money from my parents. This resulted in little social life and missed opportunities mainly in highschool so it didn't really matter. By being on the edge financially, my dad established dominance in the house as the man of the house by being unreasonable and critiquing every little thing and almost always, he was contradicting everything he says. This caused me to realize not to listen to anything he says because it was all "bs".

Another thing I carry would be the generation gap. Although I am a first generation immigrant, I've pretty much assimilated to the American culture. I would believe decisons my parents make are wrong and they believe decisions I make are wrong. They think my actions are inappropriate but they're completely normal in America.

Just constant confliction of interest and different ideas of how to act keeps tension between my parents and I.